“Yea, you love me and I love you too but things just aren’t the same.” – Me
That quote has been said to my past significant others or I have thought about saying it. Now, with this post, I am going to shine some light on my personal life when it comes to my love life. No, this post is not written with the intention to hurt anyone’s feelings, but I do know that someone may feel a certain way about it and that is ok…. because I am open to discussing the “issue” that you may have. But, let me grab my light and shine it on myself. Let’s dig in!
Love Life & Loving Me
I am not even going to lie and say love is “wack” and that I prefer to be single because I been hurt so bad and that I am the perfect boyfriend…I wasn’t built like that. Plus, I am in a full-blown relationship, so love will never be “wack” and being single is cool, but bae holds me down.
But I do have to be honest….my love life has been a little daunting at times. I felt as though I threw myself into situations just because I wanted to and not for the right reasons. Yes, I am admitting it! I knew from the beginning that I liked someone, but I did not build a strong bond enough with them to say I was fully committed from the start. Have I had my ways? Yes. Have I hurt someone? Yes. Have I been hurt? Yes. BUT THAT DOES NOT JUSTIFY MY FLY BY DAY LOVE!!! Each one of my past relationships taught me something and here they are in short starting from high school:
Ex 1: Some people just don’t care about your feelings, and will date you for the possible attention that they may receive.
Ex 2: You NEVER know what someone could be doing when you aren’t looking at them.
Ex 3: Do not hold someone back if the love is real you will always be cool.
Ex 4: At times the ones that they are messing with are closer then what you think.
Ex 5: Sometimes we can be too much alike and that is not always good.
Ex 6: I will grow and develop but I want you to grow and develop too and if you aren’t willing and ready it is best for us to be friends and let me help you as a friend.
Ex Status Still Pending: Friends can get too involved, trust is not mandatory it is earned, and do not be afraid to ask questions. “Are you trying to play me?”
With those past experiences, I could feel the longevity (time to break up) of each relationship and be hoping that either one could have been forever but as you see I was right. Some lasted a while after the whole honeymoon phase, some stopped during the honeymoon phase, and others the honeymoon phase was extended until we got sick of each other. I am still cool with all of them and still conversate with them from time to time with no negative energy between. I still have some love for them is all I can say.
I feel as though that me breaking it off with them or them breaking it off with me was a lesson and a bonus to who I was and gifted me a new trait that I could apply to my love arsenal. In the beginning, I was young and naive and I just took on anything but now I know exactly what I want out of someone and what I will and will not tolerate. What can you learn from this? Do not hate your past relationships. Use those experiences to learn and grow from them. Use the past situation as stepping stones to a new and improved you.
I SPOKE ON IT!!!
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